I was raised in a culturally Jewish, religiously secular home. I converted due to an experience with the Holy Spirit.

It’s a little bit like trying to explain a new color, but I’ll try.

I was meeting a friend of my friend’s for the first time. The three of us were hanging out together, walking through our city, and getting to know each other. We got on the subject of religion, and my friend’s new friend asked me if I believed in God.

As I opened my mouth to say no, I became overwhelmed with the presence of the Holy Spirit. In that moment I literally felt the enveloping presence of a sentient being surrounding me and actually sharing my headspace with me for a moment as if to say, “I’m in here, you reading me?”

I was actually a pretty militant anti-theist at the time, and didn’t even believe in Jesus as a historical figure. But when this presence came over me, I was certain it was God, and it was imparting to me the truth of the gospels and that this very force had taken a lifetime in the flesh as Jesus Christ. Jesus was just simply the identity of this being.

It’s hard to describe how I was so certain of it. It was almost like information was just uploaded into me. The conclusion I’ve come to is that a created being has it within them to intuitively recognize their creator when in their presence. It really felt like a reunion with a long lost best friend than any sort of introduction.

The two things I can most closely compare it to: Falling in love. It’s very easy to say love doesn’t exist, that it’s chemical reactions, that people are acting in mutual self interest or at most reciprocal altruism. But actually falling in love is proof of love for the person doing the falling. You experience love. You become convinced of its reality because you’re experiencing everything that it is. It’s not easy to mistake love for anything but love. When I experienced God, I became convinced. I couldn’t mistake Him for anything but the creator of the Cosmos, and my creator.

The second thing is waking up from a dream. When you’re in a dream, you don’t necessarily know you’re dreaming. You may even “falsely” wake up in your dream, thinking you’re awake, but really still be dreaming. But when you finally do wake up into reality, you know on an internal level that you are truly awake. You know what reality really feels like. Waking up from a goofy dream, where flying elephants were real and no one had heard of pancakes gives you that “oh, right I’m dreaming. I’m not in narnia, of course pancakes exist, and of course flying elephants aren’t real.” You just know you’re back to reality.

When I experienced God, it was like waking up to the broader reality of the spiritual world. That feeling I described above is exactly the same. Almost remembering. “Oh, yeah, of course there’s a God. Obviously it’s Christ. I’m a created being, in a created world.” It was just intuitively obvious after experiencing it.

And just feeling God’s nature. You can tell this being is the source of all Goodness and Love. I knew God knew every little secret misdeed I’ve ever done, every single angry and bitter thought, but He still loved me thoroughly and completely and without any hint of judgment about any part of me or my past. His love felt not only like a fatherly sort of love, which it did, but simultaneously like a love you have for your best friend. A deep connection of mutual respect and genuine interest in one another. A “liking” not just “loving,” if that makes sense. And at the same time, a feeling of affection. Like a parent with a baby or even an animal lover with their favorite pet.

It was just so profound and beautiful and unlike anything I can truly describe. This all literally swept over me in the instant between I was asked if I believed in God and when I tried to respond. I ended up just stammering my way into an “I don’t know” and letting my friend start talking about religion. Then I just enjoyed the presence of God, and we actually had a little conversation.

I hope you get to experience it for yourself. I still don’t know exactly why I got to experience Him and others who are just like I was don’t get the same courtesy. But it’s the most beautiful moment of my life, to date.

I didn’t realize how happy I was to find out God existed. I thought even if one religion was right, I would be displeased with that. But the moment I knew God was so perfect and Good (and quite funny, in my experience!) I was more thrilled than I’ve ever been. I think even most Christians (who haven’t had such an experience) are going to be very surprised by just how Kind and generous God is. There is a reason people say “God is love.” We’re not just going to be worshipping at His feet for eternity. We’re going to be getting along with Him like a best friend and fulfilling our deepest joys, which we were created to fulfill.

Anyway I’m sidetracking myself. Sorry for the long windedness. I get very excited when talking about my experiences with God haha.

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